What A Weekend

I went to work tired today not expecting much. Today was payday and on payday they always do a 50/50 draw at work. I don't play all the time but this week I wanted to buy tickets but didn't have any cash on me. The guy who runs it said he'd spot me so I took 1 ticket for 2.00. I decided that it was stupid that I work for a bank and had no cash so I went to the ABM and took out cash. I went to find him and he didn't have enough change so I decided to get another 2 tickets. He was about to hand the tickets to another co worker who was buying some and she said to give me my tickets first. Well one of the tickets she said to give me was the winner $127.50. WOO HOO

Now what does a girl do with all that found money....only one acceptable answer as far as I'm concerned.....buy shoes. I bought a new pair of running shoes for myself, bought my team Tim Hortons and bought an apple cider for the co worker who gave me the winning ticket.

I went out Friday night to the GroundHog. Had a blast!!! Within a matter of minutes I was invited to a private party on July 22nd, a camping trip on Canada Day long weekend.

Saturday went out for Laura's Birthday and her 1 year transplant anniversary. Didn't quite go according to plan but she loved her pink portable DVD player Nina Norm and I got her.

On Sunday I unexpectedly was invited out and ended up down at harbourfront. It had been forever since I had been down there. Had a really nice time.

Took Monday as a vacation day...was prob a good idea cause who knew that much would happen in one weekend. I needed some time to recover so Laura Nina and I all went for pedicures and maicures. My toes look like green smarties.

Overall great weekend

Alot Of Time To Think

I have had alot of time to think over this past week. I woke up last Saturday with the flu and then woke up on Wednesday with pink eye. Since I have been contagious I have been a prisoner in my own home. I have had alot of time to think.

I think I had a major revaltion today. In my life I have always had a hard time asking for what I want or need. I'm not sure why I guess I didn't feel worthy of receiving so why ask. The conculsion I came to today was that if I do not ask for what I want or need that may the reason I don't seem to get what I want. As Dr. Phil would say if you keep doing what you're doing you'll keep getting the same results and how's that working for ya?

Truthfully it's not. I am almost 30 years old there are certain things I should be able to say, certain situations I should be able to express myself in and I don't. I always leave those times thinking I should've said this or I should've done that. I also realize I tend to hide behind my sarcasim. Just kidding but clearing the air at the same time not owning my feelings...why not they are mine? No no I'm not mad you forgot my birthday it's been almost 2 months since it happend I'm almost over it. Rather than even though we don't hang out nearly as much as we used to I still thought you were my friend and would at least make an effort once a year to spend some time with me rather than have me be just someone you bump into because we both happen to be in the same place at the same time . Another trick pretending my standards are lower than they are but secretly hoping things will change. No no we can be friends with "extras" no strings, no problem but then secretly wishing somehow it turns into something more. Rather than Sorry I like strings, strings are good it's a package deal all or nothing...and if he says nothing really am I worse off than I was yesterday?

I have ocassionally decided to get a back bone and the world hasn't stopped spinning, the roof didn't cave in, lightning didn't strike....is it fair to say that in those situations if nothing completely horrible happened then in future incidents the same results can be expected.

Only one way to find out!!